How long do i keep going?
I dont get it. Sometimes im on top of the world, others im on the bottom. I was sitting in the car last night after coming back from a drive, and i was listening to the baseball game going on across the street in the park. I said to heather “listen to that. Those people are off of work, enjoying themselves, watching their kids play, no worries”. Seems like i cant wake up in the morning without being dragged down by some kind of ongoing thing that i cant seem to overcome ot get off my back. The worst part is, i cant seem to let go of the things that bother me. Its as if im set up as a person, to see things through until they are a success, no matter how much of a failure they are.
Solutions? Ive debated taking a hiedus. Putting down the computer, perhaps taking a job in management somewhere. Spending more time on the weights, play games, relax. Spend time with my kids and try to forget about the problems and hangups. Then it hits me. I cant. I know why i cant. I cant because this is my job. This is how i make money, and i cant afford to let a possible chance go by. Or can i?
If someone told you, that the next winning lottery ticket was one in the next 10,000, how long would you spend your money for food or living expenses buying up all the lottery tickets to get the winning one? The analogy isnt sound, but the point remains. How long do i keep going?
June 24th, 2009 at 7:39 pm
I can relate…..I think it just comes with the territory of being a small business owner. The same things which make us successful, can ultimately be our downfall.
It is difficult to unplug, but just have to do it from time to time and recharge. I am hearing and reading more and more about boundaries, unplugging etc. Chris Brogan (and others) touch on it over at dad-o-matic, http://dadomatic.com/
June 27th, 2009 at 9:28 pm
I feel your pain. It’s like if I miss one day of keeping the websites upgraded the world will end. But it’s what we have chosen and we must live with it!